i watched ai tonight,  i was on the edge of my seat when bo got on stage to perform,
he sang a song called, i forget...that's not the title of the song,but for the life of me, I can't remember what song it was. Anyway it was one of my fave performance by him,  there was just something about it that reeked authenticity, it didn't lok like he was on Ai, it looked like he was singing a song in one of his gig, you can just feel the spirit of the music...he wasn't singing...he was oozing it...I think it helped that the song was not familiar to me, it sounded ambigous, there were no catchy riffs or hooks, the fixed Ai band, pretty much sucked. which made Bo's
aunthenticity stand out all the more.

any suggestions on how to  make my blog look good?  It seriously fugly.....where's Oprah and her minions when you need her?

 my blog seriously has very low self esteem.  it is whispering to me, asking for permission to just curl into a ball and roll, die in the darkest corner of the room... now should i say yes?

i guess i  have the ugliest blog here. it shouts"  I am an unloved blog, I am a deadbeat of a blog, I have a ghost of a shoutbox on my side that I carry as dead weight"  I'm fugly..fugly....fugly....fugly.....

I wonder if other bloggers are concerned about the appearance of their blogs, do they feel the need to maintain it's healthy appearance?   or buy it stuff from the blogstore to make it happy? I usually just starve my blog.... it gets what it deserves. anyway, i've decided I'll be writing here more often.

for no special reason.

i haven't touched these pages in ages. damn that rhymhes...grrrrr...it's impossible to spell rhyyme...did I get it right this time? didn't think so...hihihihih

Sometimes when you're really down & out your thoughts get too ugly. maybe this is why I've been staying away from this place. I dind't want to see in solid letters, how bad it really is, i've bee wanting to get on meds, but really it's not a solution, it only ties you over until the good time arrives, that is to say, when you feel atleast start to feel better. but i don't feel that I'm that sad yet..... by that i don't really mean sad, for lack of better words to represent how sh8ty I really feel. I say sad.

Anyway this sucks.... i'm getting headaches again & I feel like i'm floating in outerspace when I'm walking down the streets. It usually happens when I get this *sad*. Oh well If I could only find something, a little thing that

would bring me a little bit of happiness..I would stop nagging.

I hope I feel better soon.